Mixed feelings

It rains in El Salvador... Then it's sunny... Then it rains again.

There are times when I get these mixed feelings, and I want to imagine that is raining in Baltimore, that is sunny in Missouri, that I get to play in the snow in Washington Dc, that I can feel the breeze in Pennsylvania and finally that I get to go to church in New Jersey.

I wonder what kind of memories will Asia bring for me.

Trip to Taiwan on mid 2013.

This will be VERY interesting and F-U-N!

Food Food Food - Not asking for much

I wonder why in the world does everything has to do with food?

If a birthday... we celebrate eating.

If a family gathering... everybody must eat at least a piece of cake for dessert.

If a meeting... where do you go and discuss something? tell me, what restaurant or cafe?

Today I felt really bad, sadly because of food. I'm not gonna get into more details because of very personal reasons, plus I wouldn't want to get fired.

I had enough of explaining myself to people that I'm allergic to many kinds of food that I rather avoid instead of having "just a little bite".

I love myself, very much. I do respect people, but still, I love me more.

I refuse to eat gluten: Makes me feel dizzy, my eyes see blurry, I get nausea, I get a headache. So, please try to understand that I won't eat any birthday cake, white bread, oat meal or cookie, because: I love myself more than all of that.

I refuse to have sweet things: Regular Sugar/Splenda makes me have really bad cramps and my stomach grows the size of a 4-month pregnant lady, plus the horrible pain that lasts for hours. So, with that being said, I won't have anything with sugar in it.

Plus, in addition to gluten and sugar, there is also: milk, pork (yup, I don't eat ham).

All of the above is true, and makes me sick that people don't believe me or maybe they don't care when I say "I won't eat that". Usually I get angry faces at me because people might think that I'm rejecting their food - well in fact I have to, but it's for a reasonable cause: I don't want to regret it later.

After everything I went through today, I decided one thing that I believe it's gonna help me live the life that I want, and it will fulfill everything with many more pleasant memories:

I decided to stop going to certain social events that would attempt against my well being. That's all. I will no longer attend any sort of event/meeting/gathering that is not hosted by a close friend or relative.

Nobody likes pushy people, but in my case it's much more than that, this time it went too far and I'm done.

Surgery

Today is surgery day for Cookie. I pray to God everything goes well.

Happy February! :)

This is a brand new start...

On December 28th, 2 guys broke into my house while I was peacefully in my room editing some videos, using only my MacBook and my video camera. Both of my favorite toys were stolen as one of the guys was pointing his gun at my face.

Everything became blurry, I lost projects, my video camera and of course my aluminum MacBook. (oh my precious!)

Please don't get me wrong, this is not a sad story, it wouldn't be nice to read anything like this without a happy ending...

It's true, I put myself together and did everything I had to do in order to get my feet on the ground, sit up straight, chin up and face reality. If this was a game, I better get the rules down and play nice, play hard, and sometimes play rough.

I learned that God was in control, but only if I'd let Him.

...and I did.

My Birthday (January 25th) was one of the greatest I've ever had in my life, I felt spoiled at work, my bosses got me gluten free, sugar free snacks, and a cheeseburger from Wendy's (my favorites). At home I had such a great time gathered with the people I love: my family.

Of course a couple of days later I went out with my boyfriend and he took me shopping (I hate going shopping) but gladly it turned out very productive and fun :)

The week after my birthday, God gave me lemons, and I made lemonade.

With this metaphor all I want to say is that God provided me out of nowhere with the chance of getting a new computer...

... And here I am, writing a new blog post with my brand new Macbook Pro with LED backlit :)

The end? nah! this is just the beginning... ^_^

You're my home

Well, we did make it through...

and yeah, that's why I love you.

Come back soon ;)



All I did today was stare at my iPod Touch and think about you all day.

Argh!

I never get any notification when I get a comment on any of my posts! now that is one of the things that makes me angry...

But today...

I'm sick, I'm home, it's Christmas eve and I'm all alone... poor me, yeah right :P

Even though I just got a cold (literally I caught it this afternoon) I'm not feeling like it's been the worse Christmas or anything like it... nah that's totally not me, I always get angry about silly stuff that can be resolved with a couple of clicks, but there are things that will never bring me down.

I just spoke with my boyfriend on FaceTime. He is doing well, he is currently at the Seattle's airport, and I must add that I miss him very much... I love him, and I would love to be with him right now, or maybe just falling asleep embarrassed into his arms.

Sometimes, we have to stop thinking about everything is going "wrong", I would say, everything is "different", because different is way better than perfect, if not life would be really boring.

I wish... I wish... I wish...

There are so many things that I'm wishing right now, that I'm sure that if I think about all those things really hard, I may be able to see all of them happening in my dreams. I'm taking a NyQuil and I'm already so-o "happy" LOL

Happy Christmas eve, wherever you are, whoever you are and may the Lord be in control of every situation you're going through, it's all good :) I know.

Why do we never know what we've got until it's gone?

Well in my case I remember having a beautiful skin, no pimples and no stress...

Life seemed to be very simple a couple of years ago when I used to be an au pair, and all I had to do was to focus on my job AND to make the most of my time going out. Don't get me wrong because I'm not talking about parties since I go to bed around 9pm. (For real)

I enjoyed so much, to go out for walks, go to the library, watch tons of movies on Netflix, oh Netflix... They have been sending me emails with messages like "Nora come back", with titles like "We want you to give you a free trial again", that kills me!(By the way, El Salvador is not regional eligible to have Netflix just yet)

Now that I'm back in El Salvador, I'm living the day-a-day stress of juggling with many things that doesn't concern me, but because I feel that people expects me to do them.

I believe my mind is out of place, now I think like a 'mom' would think when I go to the grocery store, I think about my family, and I always make sure I get them something as a treat because I don't want them to think that I didn't think of them while I was shopping. (You guessed well, I'm back at parents house, in my old room where I grew up as a child). But let's just things as they are, I'm the daughter and I should not feel pressured to always bring something - is ok once in a while.

A couple of weeks ago when I looked at myself in the mirror and asked myself "what is going on? what's missing here?" I realized how important is to take some "ME" time, so I decided to take a little of that a few days of the week, to keep my mind sane as well.

My routine has gone from: (No particular order though)
1. work
2. study
3. church

to:

1. swim
2. dance lessons
3. movie time
4. study
6. cooking on Fridays (for dinner)
7. church and
8. other scheduled activities once and a while (this last one means to listen to God on what does he wants me to do in order to obey Him since He has scheduled this time for me)

In fact I will be applying 8. soon, since I will be working a full Saturday (Next Saturday) as a translator for (free) for an organization that will bring sponsors from the US to meet the children they are parenting to meet them for the first time and have a F-U-N day! I will take pictures and post them if it's possible ;)

I wish I had no stress, so inside of me I desired to have more "ME" Time... Now that I'm working to get it back I will never let it go :)