Today I found myself with so much to say, so much to feel, so much to do! (I really need to let this one out of my system, seriously).
Gosh! I have tons of homework and look at me, writing in my blog a new entry as cool as ice can be haha.. Well, today I just wanted to say that even though I'm dead for you, I'm still alive, you live around 3 miles from my place and we're still sharing the same sky.
I wished things were different and you were happy, somehow, with somebody else because you deserve it, stop following my shadow, the old me is gone, completely gone forever. I pray for you, yeah, I still do.
The world keeps going round and round but when everything stops and I think about you, I would like to say the only thing that comes to my heart: I'm sorry. I'm very sorry to try to change you, to made you think we we're meant to be and that back then when I was younger (young and dumb) I thought it was love what I felt for you, and I made you love me like anything in this world.
Now, I understand why God decided to take me far away, to become the person that I am now, for me everything is new, but for you everything remains the same, and I just wish to see you smiling like you used to when I met the real you.
Goodbye for now, just remember, before I go, I want you to keep in your heart this words: If you want the world to smile back at you, please be the one who smiles first! love will come to you again if you believe it so.
Like Avril Lavigne said: Goodbye Lullaby.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
At last another entry (:
A lot has been going on lately, so, here are some updates for people who follows me, loves me, hates me, hahaha, just kidding!
I want to apologize in first place because it's really been a while since the last entry, seems like I've been partying since January ah? nah, I wished! but seriously I've been busy, how come? well, I got hired this February in an awesome place, I work as a virtual assistant, and as far as I know, it truly is way better than a call center, but challenging too, personally, I love it.
In other things, I've been working on my personal projects as a designer, and it is very interesting to keep on learning so much about other types of software and programs such as Microsoft Quickbooks even (b/c this one has nothing to do with designing lol).
I miss having free time so much, I don't recall the last time I went to the movies or out on a date, it might had happened on Valentine's day and if that's the case, that was so long ago... I need to catch a break.
But for now I gotta go sew something up, in fact the skirt I'm wearing today, because it got a small hole on the side somehow.
I want to apologize in first place because it's really been a while since the last entry, seems like I've been partying since January ah? nah, I wished! but seriously I've been busy, how come? well, I got hired this February in an awesome place, I work as a virtual assistant, and as far as I know, it truly is way better than a call center, but challenging too, personally, I love it.
In other things, I've been working on my personal projects as a designer, and it is very interesting to keep on learning so much about other types of software and programs such as Microsoft Quickbooks even (b/c this one has nothing to do with designing lol).
I miss having free time so much, I don't recall the last time I went to the movies or out on a date, it might had happened on Valentine's day and if that's the case, that was so long ago... I need to catch a break.
But for now I gotta go sew something up, in fact the skirt I'm wearing today, because it got a small hole on the side somehow.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Review
On 2010 I would have made the biggest mistake of my entire life, well, actually many. But for now happiness is fulfilling all aspects in my very personal decisions. I don't know for sure where am I going with this entry but it was really time to post something about the things that I didn't do that allowed me to grow and understand beyond what my eyes can see.
First of all, I'm glad God lead me to El Salvador to realize that it was time to finish my degree, I have one more year left of my career of Marketing and Publicity, and after this last semester I felt that it was the right thing to do.
On the other hand I've gone through many changes and stages during 2010, when I came back to El Salvador, I never thought that I was gonna catch up with the fact that life goes on, and my 'friends' from school weren't there for me anymore. So I was down to zero in my social life. I was even heartbroken still, but for now I'm done bring up that topic. Just for the record, I do not feel ready to be in a relationship still, and no more comments about it.
I learned a lot about finances and jerks during 2010 for sure. My prayer is that may God's justice will be made on them, because this people have no fear to God, oh well, let me tell you this, nobody wants to go over my heavenly father, but is too late for those who took advantage of me, and yes pin1531 you'll pay but not by my hands, and you can call it Karma if you want, I call it God's Justice.
I've learned so much the hard way that all I can say is that I'm very thankful I'm done, I made it so far, and it's been good. Everything turned out not as I expected, but gladly for the best.
Is way funny how God speaks to me throughout other people, and every time I've made up my mind He comes with a whole new plan for me, fresh ideas, love it-love it!, and I'm excited to begin the research of scholarships in Europe, thanks to my new french friend who highly recommends them. I'm not staying in El Salvador for long, but this time I understand that is not because I'm making a fuzz about it, but because is on God's plans to take me some other place and glorify His name with my life.
So, whether it seems good, bad or blurry, let's rock out this 2011 and give our best!
First of all, I'm glad God lead me to El Salvador to realize that it was time to finish my degree, I have one more year left of my career of Marketing and Publicity, and after this last semester I felt that it was the right thing to do.
On the other hand I've gone through many changes and stages during 2010, when I came back to El Salvador, I never thought that I was gonna catch up with the fact that life goes on, and my 'friends' from school weren't there for me anymore. So I was down to zero in my social life. I was even heartbroken still, but for now I'm done bring up that topic. Just for the record, I do not feel ready to be in a relationship still, and no more comments about it.
I learned a lot about finances and jerks during 2010 for sure. My prayer is that may God's justice will be made on them, because this people have no fear to God, oh well, let me tell you this, nobody wants to go over my heavenly father, but is too late for those who took advantage of me, and yes pin1531 you'll pay but not by my hands, and you can call it Karma if you want, I call it God's Justice.
I've learned so much the hard way that all I can say is that I'm very thankful I'm done, I made it so far, and it's been good. Everything turned out not as I expected, but gladly for the best.
Is way funny how God speaks to me throughout other people, and every time I've made up my mind He comes with a whole new plan for me, fresh ideas, love it-love it!, and I'm excited to begin the research of scholarships in Europe, thanks to my new french friend who highly recommends them. I'm not staying in El Salvador for long, but this time I understand that is not because I'm making a fuzz about it, but because is on God's plans to take me some other place and glorify His name with my life.
So, whether it seems good, bad or blurry, let's rock out this 2011 and give our best!
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Thanksgiving
So, today is Thanksgiving Day, and what is usually done in a day like today is sharing with family great memories, but most of all, say a prayer to thank God for the good we all have in our lives.
I think it would be more exciting if I were actually celebrating this holiday in El Salvador, but anyways...
I'd like to thank for a wonderful-not perfect but great family that God has chosen for me to be part of, because He has touched my heart in every way with every single relative. It is truly amazing how God let me have the chance to spend a little time with most of my extended family and also to meet awesome friends in the last couple of years.
I am thankful for every friend I met in the US, and for the very few I have in El Salvador, they are a blessing and make my life better, everyday.
I am thankful in every way about INTERNET, nowadays is primordial to keep in touch with people, so I love Skype, E-mail, Facebook and now, Twitter... And also because of Technology in general I think as well: My Amazing MacBook and gadgets HOORAY...
But not only material things bring me happiness, well, actually they do, wait what?!
YEAH, Happiness comes from material things, what it doesn't is JOY, and joy can only come from God, what's the difference? well, I've learned that Happiness is a temporarily feeling, and Joy is the never lasting state of inner felicity that God gives you when the Holy Spirit comes into your heart. Kinda complicated but still the coolest thing.
In other words, I am mostly thankful for having Jesus in my life, and having the honor of serving Him with my gifts.
...And that's what I'm thankful for, YAY, happy Thanksgiving everyone!
Monday, November 22, 2010
FAQ
YES, Ladies and Gentlemen, no kidding, people have asked me not once or twice but several times during the past 4 weeks these questions:
FAQ1: "Where is your laptop??"
A: Hey, I don't have to carry it around when isn't needed, plus it weighs 5 pounds and for me it really is kinda heavy lol. (I've never being well known b/c of my strengh)
FAQ2: "When are you getting a boyfriend?"
A: WOOOT? why in the world do people think that I'm missing something on my side holding my hand? I'm okay, not planning on having or 'getting' one any time soon. Thanks for the concern. ¬¬
FAQ3: "Why is that you don't have a boyfriend?"
A: People, c'mon! I don't need a boyfriend anymore, I'm young and I'll wait 4 years to give it a shot one last time, just not now. Seriously.
FAQ4: "Hey you have potential... So, What the heck are doing in El Salvador?"
A: I still have no idea, no wait, I'm here because I need a degree, is the only way I'll be 'somebody' out there.
FAQ5: "When are you leaving?"
A: Well, according to the plan I'll get out of here in 2 years. According to God's plan, NO IDEA.
FAQ6: "Are you the girl in the hugs video?"
A: Yes I am.
FAQ7: "Do you go Party?"
A: I don't party... I rather watch movies and nap.
FAQ8: "What was that again, The Big Bang.. what?"
A: The Big Bang Theory, and never mind, I can't keep on having this conversation with you.
Conclusions:
Well, apparently I'm ain't that social according to the standards of 'How to blend in down here' because I'm not in a relationship or interested to become part of a superficial group of hypocrites who are only interested on getting something out of you, is it worth it?, nah.
I do feel enthusiastic about life, I can't wait to look back and say "hey you remember how anti-social I were in those days when I was finishing my degree?" and my REAL friends will be there to say, "yeah, good thing we steered that way 'cause now were here ".
FAQ1: "Where is your laptop??"
A: Hey, I don't have to carry it around when isn't needed, plus it weighs 5 pounds and for me it really is kinda heavy lol. (I've never being well known b/c of my strengh)
FAQ2: "When are you getting a boyfriend?"
A: WOOOT? why in the world do people think that I'm missing something on my side holding my hand? I'm okay, not planning on having or 'getting' one any time soon. Thanks for the concern. ¬¬
FAQ3: "Why is that you don't have a boyfriend?"
A: People, c'mon! I don't need a boyfriend anymore, I'm young and I'll wait 4 years to give it a shot one last time, just not now. Seriously.
FAQ4: "Hey you have potential... So, What the heck are doing in El Salvador?"
A: I still have no idea, no wait, I'm here because I need a degree, is the only way I'll be 'somebody' out there.
FAQ5: "When are you leaving?"
A: Well, according to the plan I'll get out of here in 2 years. According to God's plan, NO IDEA.
FAQ6: "Are you the girl in the hugs video?"
A: Yes I am.
FAQ7: "Do you go Party?"
A: I don't party... I rather watch movies and nap.
FAQ8: "What was that again, The Big Bang.. what?"
A: The Big Bang Theory, and never mind, I can't keep on having this conversation with you.
Conclusions:
Well, apparently I'm ain't that social according to the standards of 'How to blend in down here' because I'm not in a relationship or interested to become part of a superficial group of hypocrites who are only interested on getting something out of you, is it worth it?, nah.
I do feel enthusiastic about life, I can't wait to look back and say "hey you remember how anti-social I were in those days when I was finishing my degree?" and my REAL friends will be there to say, "yeah, good thing we steered that way 'cause now were here ".
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
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