Sunday, December 25, 2011

You're my home

Well, we did make it through...

and yeah, that's why I love you.

Come back soon ;)


All I did today was stare at my iPod Touch and think about you all day.

Saturday, December 24, 2011


I never get any notification when I get a comment on any of my posts! now that is one of the things that makes me angry...

But today...

I'm sick, I'm home, it's Christmas eve and I'm all alone... poor me, yeah right :P

Even though I just got a cold (literally I caught it this afternoon) I'm not feeling like it's been the worse Christmas or anything like it... nah that's totally not me, I always get angry about silly stuff that can be resolved with a couple of clicks, but there are things that will never bring me down.

I just spoke with my boyfriend on FaceTime. He is doing well, he is currently at the Seattle's airport, and I must add that I miss him very much... I love him, and I would love to be with him right now, or maybe just falling asleep embraced into his arms.

Sometimes, we have to stop thinking about everything is going "wrong", I would say, everything is "different", because different is way better than perfect, if not life would be really boring.

I wish... I wish... I wish...

There are so many things that I'm wishing right now, that I'm sure that if I think about all those things really hard, I may be able to see all of them happening in my dreams. I'm taking a NyQuil and I'm already so-o "happy" LOL

Happy Christmas eve, wherever you are, whoever you are and may the Lord be in control of every situation you're going through, it's all good :) I know.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Why do we never know what we've got until it's gone?

Well in my case I remember having a beautiful skin, no pimples and no stress...

Life seemed to be very simple a couple of years ago when I used to be an au pair, and all I had to do was to focus on my job AND to make the most of my time going out. Don't get me wrong because I'm not talking about parties since I go to bed around 9pm. (For real)

I enjoyed so much, to go out for walks, go to the library, watch tons of movies on Netflix, oh Netflix... They have been sending me emails with messages like "Nora come back", with titles like "We want you to give you a free trial again", that kills me!(By the way, El Salvador is not regional eligible to have Netflix just yet)

Now that I'm back in El Salvador, I'm living the day-a-day stress of juggling with many things that doesn't concern me, but because I feel that people expects me to do them.

I believe my mind is out of place, now I think like a 'mom' would think when I go to the grocery store, I think about my family, and I always make sure I get them something as a treat because I don't want them to think that I didn't think of them while I was shopping. (You guessed well, I'm back at parents house, in my old room where I grew up as a child). But let's just things as they are, I'm the daughter and I should not feel pressured to always bring something - is ok once in a while.

A couple of weeks ago when I looked at myself in the mirror and asked myself "what is going on? what's missing here?" I realized how important is to take some "ME" time, so I decided to take a little of that a few days of the week, to keep my mind sane as well.

My routine has gone from: (No particular order though)
1. work
2. study
3. church


1. swim
2. dance lessons
3. movie time
4. study
6. cooking on Fridays (for dinner)
7. church and
8. other scheduled activities once and a while (this last one means to listen to God on what does he wants me to do in order to obey Him since He has scheduled this time for me)

In fact I will be applying 8. soon, since I will be working a full Saturday (Next Saturday) as a translator for (free) for an organization that will bring sponsors from the US to meet the children they are parenting to meet them for the first time and have a F-U-N day! I will take pictures and post them if it's possible ;)

I wish I had no stress, so inside of me I desired to have more "ME" Time... Now that I'm working to get it back I will never let it go :)

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Just sometimes...

For a minute or two I like to close my eyes and take a deep breath and reflect about life, the things I've done that have touched me in a way that I can't really explain. I like to think that I have ability to make everyone happy, even though that is one of the biggest lies I keep in my head, because I find myself trying so hard and failing in every attempt of gaining a smile… because it doesn't last for long.

If I could do things differently I would change that part of me of pleasing those whom will never do the same… but I can't, or maybe I just don't want to, I like to be a giver instead of receive, why is that? why is it that I can't just let people down? why do I even bother to bring it up? maybe and just maybe I can't actually talk about it with no one, unless that person feels the same way, a part of me wants to let go… and also want a second chance.

Monday, August 8, 2011

Dermatologist appt coming soon

I've been asking myself why am I spoiling myself so much since my last facial at the spa... But even though I've been trying to take care of my skin, hair, nails etc. I just can't get the results I want.

I look at the mirror, and see a lot of these white heads that I've never had in my face before, I used to have this beautiful soft skin and now, I'm really concerned if this is because I am kinda "stressed". I don't feel that worried though, and the only thing that bugs me right now is that I can't get rid of those white heads!! ugh!

So far I've tried products as Neutrogena facial wash, Clean&Clear astringent, Nivea tonic, Ponds hydrating lotion, St. Ives apricot scrub, Dove soap bar... I even switched all my makeup to a bit more expensive brands.

Nothing... nothing is happening, I actually noticed more white heads omg!

It is truly time to go to the dermatologist, because I'm DONE with all this products! and if I ever find the right answer of what really works, I'll write a post of it.

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Small tweaks

I'm feeling really hungry right now, I think it should be a good time to go and have breakfast... oh man I'm starving! But I just had to fix a few things in my blog, I didn't like the background that much, and the photo-stream at the bottom is not working properly, plus I found a few new gadgets to add, although I might have to re-think if I'm going with them or not. All I know is that I'm done tweaking a little this thing, and so ready to start an awesome day with my camera!

Can't wait to just record 'whatever the day brings'... just not in my pj's, so I should take a shower also lawl xD


Wednesday, May 18, 2011

I'll see ya around.

Today I found myself with so much to say, so much to feel, so much to do! (I really need to let this one out of my system, seriously).

Gosh! I have tons of homework and look at me, writing in my blog a new entry as cool as ice can be haha.. Well, today I just wanted to say that even though I'm dead for you, I'm still alive, you live around 3 miles from my place and we're still sharing the same sky.

I wished things were different and you were happy, somehow, with somebody else because you deserve it, stop following my shadow, the old me is gone, completely gone forever. I pray for you, yeah, I still do.

The world keeps going round and round but when everything stops and I think about you, I would like to say the only thing that comes to my heart: I'm sorry. I'm very sorry to try to change you, to made you think we we're meant to be and that back then when I was younger (young and dumb) I thought it was love what I felt for you, and I made you love me like anything in this world.

Now, I understand why God decided to take me far away, to become the person that I am now, for me everything is new, but for you everything remains the same, and I just wish to see you smiling like you used to when I met the real you.

Goodbye for now, just remember, before I go, I want you to keep in your heart this words: If you want the world to smile back at you, please be the one who smiles first! love will come to you again if you believe it so.

Like Avril Lavigne said: Goodbye Lullaby.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

At last another entry (:

A lot has been going on lately, so, here are some updates for people who follows me, loves me, hates me, hahaha, just kidding!

I want to apologize in first place because it's really been a while since the last entry, seems like I've been partying since January ah? nah, I wished! but seriously I've been busy, how come? well, I got hired this February in an awesome place, I work as a virtual assistant, and as far as I know, it truly is way better than a call center, but challenging too, personally, I love it.

In other things, I've been working on my personal projects as a designer, and it is very interesting to keep on learning so much about other types of software and programs such as Microsoft Quickbooks even (b/c this one has nothing to do with designing lol).

I miss having free time so much, I don't recall the last time I went to the movies or out on a date, it might had happened on Valentine's day and if that's the case, that was so long ago... I need to catch a break.

But for now I gotta go sew something up, in fact the skirt I'm wearing today, because it got a small hole on the side somehow.

Thursday, January 27, 2011