Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Inner peace

When everything you've done feels right.
When is out of sight and out of mind.
When I look at the sky and take a deep breath.
When I turn the Wifi off at night so I can sleep tight.
When I'm not having dinner alone.
When I pray early in the morning.
When He hugs me...
When I reach out to Him.
When I'm done with my homework.
When we're snuggling and I feel home.
When I run up the hill and fly my kite.
When I make you an apple pie.
When I look at you and you look at me too.
When I cry and you're there to hug me.
When I fall asleep and you watch my sleep.
When I think of Lili and Odin's smile.
When I recall how much Emily cared for me.
When I imagine Eric walking out Brishti.
When I picture Brishti with her new owner.
When I have sushi with tons of ginger and soy sauce.
When it starts raining and I think of my dearest friends.
When my hands feel crafty again.
When I'm holding a microphone and sing softly.
When I write cards and letters.
When my grandma comes on Sundays.
When having cheese is not a problem anymore.
When letting go is the wisest choice.
When God is with you no matter what.

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Don't look at me! :(

Lately, I've been hating to look at myself in the mirror since I got acne problems and feels very frustrating to not being able to find a cure, the reason why this happened to me or why did it even start suddenly out of nothing.

I was looking at some of pictures from a couple of years ago, and I couldn't help to start crying because I wished I could go back to when everything was ok, and my skin was not looking like a giant pepperoni pizza.

I'm really done squeezing all my pimples, I'm done with everything, I'm just sick of this whole situation,  I'm not crazy, there is something really wrong with me... I just don't know what it is.

My hair feels different too, it used to be soft and brown, not this dark... gosh, everything got so messed up somehow.