Just sometimes...

For a minute or two I like to close my eyes and take a deep breath and reflect about life, the things I've done that have touched me in a way that I can't really explain. I like to think that I have ability to make everyone happy, even though that is one of the biggest lies I keep in my head, because I find myself trying so hard and failing in every attempt of gaining a smile… because it doesn't last for long.

If I could do things differently I would change that part of me of pleasing those whom will never do the same… but I can't, or maybe I just don't want to, I like to be a giver instead of receive, why is that? why is it that I can't just let people down? why do I even bother to bring it up? maybe and just maybe I can't actually talk about it with no one, unless that person feels the same way, a part of me wants to let go… and also want a second chance.

Dermatologist appt coming soon

I've been asking myself why am I spoiling myself so much since my last facial at the spa... But even though I've been trying to take care of my skin, hair, nails etc. I just can't get the results I want.

I look at the mirror, and see a lot of these white heads that I've never had in my face before, I used to have this beautiful soft skin and now, I'm really concerned if this is because I am kinda "stressed". I don't feel that worried though, and the only thing that bugs me right now is that I can't get rid of those white heads!! ugh!

So far I've tried products as Neutrogena facial wash, Clean&Clear astringent, Nivea tonic, Ponds hydrating lotion, St. Ives apricot scrub, Dove soap bar... I even switched all my makeup to a bit more expensive brands.

Nothing... nothing is happening, I actually noticed more white heads omg!

It is truly time to go to the dermatologist, because I'm DONE with all this products! and if I ever find the right answer of what really works, I'll write a post of it.