Saturday, December 22, 2012

Superman by Taylor Swift

This is exactly how I feel definitely. When your guy is a superman and unfortunately he is too busy....


Tall, dark and superman
He puts papers in his briefcase and drives away
To save the world or go to work
It's the same thing to me
He's got his mother's eyes, his father's ambition
I wonder if he knows how much that I miss him
I hang on every word you say, yay
And you smile and say, "How are you? "
I say, "Just fine"
I always forget to tell you, I love you, I love you... forever

I watch superman fly away
You've got a busy day today
Go save the world, I'll be around
I watch superman fly away
Come back I'll be with you someday
I'll be right here on the ground
When you come back down

Tall, dark and beautiful
He's complicated, he's irrational
But I hope someday you'll take me away and save the day, yeah
Something in his deep brown eyes has me sayin'
He's not all bad like his reputation
And I can't hear one single word they say
And you'll leave, got places to be and I'll be OK
I always forget to tell you I love you, I loved you from the very first day

I watch superman fly away
You've got a busy day today
Go save the world I'll be around
I watch superman fly away
Come back I'll be with you someday
I'll be right here on the ground
When you come back down

And I watch you fly around the world
And I hope you don't save some other girl
Don't forget, don't forget about me
I'm far away but I never let you go
I'm lovestruck and looking out the window
Don't forget, don't forget where I'll be
Right here wishing the flowers were from you
Wishing the card was from you
Wishing the call was from you

'Cause I loved you from the very first day

I watch superman fly away
You've got a busy day today
Go save the world, I'll be around...
Forever and ever here
I watch superman fly away
I swear I'll be with you someday
I'll be right here on the ground
When you come back down


Thursday, December 20, 2012

Is not you is me

I'm just upset...

Things are not working out how I was expecting... here we go again; we haven't spoke the whole day but the first thing you have to point out is something about me, that you don't agree with.

I'm not happy because seems like he doesn't know me at all.

First of all I'm a female, I get my period every month, I get cramps, I get upset, what's the problem?

Second, saying "I don't have time for you" is not an apology.

Third, man, I can keep this up, so can you please realize it on your own that you're not showing some effort on this?

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Una de las almas más dulces y buenas se ha ido, se nos ha adelantado…

Nelson Rivas, mi primo ha dejado huella en la familia, en sus amigos, por su bondad, por su altruismo… y con gran nostalgia recuerdo que sus últimos deseos que fueron poder pagarles el servicio de cable, teléfono e Internet, mes a mes a la familia de su mejor amigo en San Miguel.

Mi primo Nelson siempre venía a El Salvador sin decir 'aguavá' en buen salvadoreño, quiere decir que nunca decía que nos vendría a visitar. Con una llamada telefónica me decía "Cipota, estoy en El Salvador, te caigo a eso de las 4 de la tarde, ahí vas a estar?".

Todas las navidades y para su cumpleaños le recordaba con gran cariño y le hacía una tarjeta con mis propias manos,  se la enviaba por correo postal y nunca recibía respuesta por parte de él. Sin embargo cuando lo veía y le preguntaba "Nelson, ¿te llegaron mis tarjetas?" siempre me abrazaba y estando entre sus brazos me decía "Gracias cipota por acordarte de mi, sí me llegaron".

Mi primo Nelson Rivas, era diabético, vivía en Atlanta Georgia, y algo que le encantaba era venir a El Salvador por tierra, manejar largas horas y tardarse días en la carretera, pasando por México, Guatemala… hasta llegar donde nosotros.

Usando sus shorts de lona, zapatos tenis de color blanco y camisetas de algodón, mostraba que para él habían cosas mucho más importantes que andar con cosas ostentosas. Aunque contaba que en su casa en Atlanta tenía una piscina… sin embargo dijo que no la usaba, pero le gustaba verla.

Nunca me había interesado saber realmente adónde van nuestras almas después de la muerte… Hoy en la mañana me confundí con los versículos de la Biblia sobre el seno de Abraham y cuando Jesús le dijo al ladrón en la cruz antes de morir que en ese día sería salvo y vería a Dios.

Hoy es cuando encuentro la respuesta a mi duda, y con convicción sé que Nelson Rivas, mi primo lejano, amado, recordado y SALVO, está BIEN, descansa su alma hasta que nuestro Señor vuelva.

Lloro por su ausencia, mas no por su paradero…. lloro porque nos ha dejado, pero Dios nos dará la paz hasta que nos reunamos con él nuevamente.

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Random thoughts

Time flies right before your eyes... The new paranormal activity movie (4?) is coming up and I have no intentions of seeing it, though I recall watching the first movie of that sequel at the movie theater a long time ago when I used to be one of those girls who gets so scared that couldn't stand a weird scene without holding a guy's arm or covering my eyes with my own hoodie...

I don't even know why am I even thinking about it.

Sunday, September 9, 2012

Happy :)

Yep, that's how me and my boyfriend may look like when we're enjoying our relationship, losing track of time... I can't imagine my life without him. 

He is my moon, my stars and my teddy bear to hug on a rainy afternoon... it was nice to snuggle today.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Inner peace

When everything you've done feels right.
When is out of sight and out of mind.
When I look at the sky and take a deep breath.
When I turn the Wifi off at night so I can sleep tight.
When I'm not having dinner alone.
When I pray early in the morning.
When He hugs me...
When I reach out to Him.
When I'm done with my homework.
When we're snuggling and I feel home.
When I run up the hill and fly my kite.
When I make you an apple pie.
When I look at you and you look at me too.
When I cry and you're there to hug me.
When I fall asleep and you watch my sleep.
When I think of Lili and Odin's smile.
When I recall how much Emily cared for me.
When I imagine Eric walking out Brishti.
When I picture Brishti with her new owner.
When I have sushi with tons of ginger and soy sauce.
When it starts raining and I think of my dearest friends.
When my hands feel crafty again.
When I'm holding a microphone and sing softly.
When I write cards and letters.
When my grandma comes on Sundays.
When having cheese is not a problem anymore.
When letting go is the wisest choice.
When God is with you no matter what.

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Don't look at me! :(

Lately, I've been hating to look at myself in the mirror since I got acne problems and feels very frustrating to not being able to find a cure, the reason why this happened to me or why did it even start suddenly out of nothing.

I was looking at some of pictures from a couple of years ago, and I couldn't help to start crying because I wished I could go back to when everything was ok, and my skin was not looking like a giant pepperoni pizza.

I'm really done squeezing all my pimples, I'm done with everything, I'm just sick of this whole situation,  I'm not crazy, there is something really wrong with me... I just don't know what it is.

My hair feels different too, it used to be soft and brown, not this dark... gosh, everything got so messed up somehow.

Thursday, May 31, 2012

Mixed feelings

It rains in El Salvador... Then it's sunny... Then it rains again.

There are times when I get these mixed feelings, and I want to imagine that is raining in Baltimore, that is sunny in Missouri, that I get to play in the snow in Washington Dc, that I can feel the breeze in Pennsylvania and finally that I get to go to church in New Jersey.

I wonder what kind of memories will Asia bring for me.

Trip to Taiwan on mid 2013.

This will be VERY interesting and F-U-N!

Monday, May 28, 2012

Food Food Food - Not asking for much

I wonder why in the world does everything has to do with food?

If a birthday... we celebrate eating.

If a family gathering... everybody must eat at least a piece of cake for dessert.

If a meeting... where do you go and discuss something? tell me, what restaurant or cafe?

Today I felt really bad, sadly because of food. I'm not gonna get into more details because of very personal reasons, plus I wouldn't want to get fired.

I had enough of explaining myself to people that I'm allergic to many kinds of food that I rather avoid instead of having "just a little bite".

I love myself, very much. I do respect people, but still, I love me more.

I refuse to eat gluten: Makes me feel dizzy, my eyes see blurry, I get nausea, I get a headache. So, please try to understand that I won't eat any birthday cake, white bread, oat meal or cookie, because: I love myself more than all of that.

I refuse to have sweet things: Regular Sugar/Splenda makes me have really bad cramps and my stomach grows the size of a 4-month pregnant lady, plus the horrible pain that lasts for hours. So, with that being said, I won't have anything with sugar in it.

Plus, in addition to gluten and sugar, there is also: milk, pork (yup, I don't eat ham).

All of the above is true, and makes me sick that people don't believe me or maybe they don't care when I say "I won't eat that". Usually I get angry faces at me because people might think that I'm rejecting their food - well in fact I have to, but it's for a reasonable cause: I don't want to regret it later.

After everything I went through today, I decided one thing that I believe it's gonna help me live the life that I want, and it will fulfill everything with many more pleasant memories:

I decided to stop going to certain social events that would attempt against my well being. That's all. I will no longer attend any sort of event/meeting/gathering that is not hosted by a close friend or relative.

Nobody likes pushy people, but in my case it's much more than that, this time it went too far and I'm done.

Tuesday, February 28, 2012


Today is surgery day for Cookie. I pray to God everything goes well.

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Happy February! :)

This is a brand new start...

On December 28th, 2 guys broke into my house while I was peacefully in my room editing some videos, using only my MacBook and my video camera. Both of my favorite toys were stolen as one of the guys was pointing his gun at my face.

Everything became blurry, I lost projects, my video camera and of course my aluminum MacBook. (oh my precious!)

Please don't get me wrong, this is not a sad story, it wouldn't be nice to read anything like this without a happy ending...

It's true, I put myself together and did everything I had to do in order to get my feet on the ground, sit up straight, chin up and face reality. If this was a game, I better get the rules down and play nice, play hard, and sometimes play rough.

I learned that God was in control, but only if I'd let Him.

...and I did.

My Birthday (January 25th) was one of the greatest I've ever had in my life, I felt spoiled at work, my bosses got me gluten free, sugar free snacks, and a cheeseburger from Wendy's (my favorites). At home I had such a great time gathered with the people I love: my family.

Of course a couple of days later I went out with my boyfriend and he took me shopping (I hate going shopping) but gladly it turned out very productive and fun :)

The week after my birthday, God gave me lemons, and I made lemonade.

With this metaphor all I want to say is that God provided me out of nowhere with the chance of getting a new computer...

... And here I am, writing a new blog post with my brand new Macbook Pro with LED backlit :)

The end? nah! this is just the beginning... ^_^