Thursday, December 17, 2009

Nothing to say

I was having our last conversation with you, over the phone... it was a goodbye with a happy ending, because we would remain friends, however, there´s not a big difference from our relationship and now, I guess we just needed to recognize that 5 months ago we were already just friends, because I never felt in your kisses that my boyfriend was ever going to come back to me..

All it´s left from "us" is pictures, I really don´t have great memories, and to be honest, it´s something that at this moment I don´t even want to think about.

Although, I can´t help it because I´m kind of angry that you have nothing else to say, you never have anything to say, good or bad, it´s upsetting.

I never got back the love I gave to you, though, I gave everything I could, to show you that I loved you like I never did before, and you took my love like paper, made a ball with it and threw it with a nice shot in the trash, yup, nice shot.

I´ll keep on dreaming with the perfect kiss, the right hug, and the unbelievable future awaiting.

Monday, December 7, 2009

It´s a busy night


No words describe better my evening than this picture.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Dating a Geek: Episode 4

Today I want to

Watch a movie and see you in it

Make a movie so you can see me

Get crazy a little

Make my hair differently

Have blueberry waffles for breakfast

And some eggs too

Look pretty, to feel pretty

Go somewhere if it´s not raining

Drink lots of water

Talk to him about our future

Find some answers

Pray hard

Look at the window and not be sad

Fix my Pascualina

Take a hot shower

know why did I have that strange dream last night

Smile

Wear his hat for a while

Have a good time babysitting

Finish laundry

Vacuum my room (again)

Be myself

Sit back and relax

Take a break

Feel loved

Talk to God and be hugged by Him

Paint my finger nails

Enjoy myself


...have enough time to do it all

Friday, December 4, 2009

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Guilty

I´ve became the person I hated, the one I never wanted to be, the one I shouted out loud it was guilty of all my problems...

I can´t think about anything else right now, it happened to me, I did it, I´m guilty of everything, I fell and hit the ground one more time.

How easy I lost my head and start making the wrong choices, I´m sorry for you, for me, and for everybody who thinks I am a good person.

Here is how I feel:

I´m holding my face in my hands because I´m so ashamed of what I´ve done.

God I´m sorry, I fell, and I fail you, I´m so sorry. Punish me the way I deserve. No mercy on me, I am guilty and in my heart I knew it was wrong.